Dear Diary, from the title you probably think I cried my eyeballs out. Well I didn't. Yay me. Honestly, I don't know what is up with my life. It's messed up after this girl started posting her 'undying love' towards my ex boyfriend.
First, its about Lulu... I admit.. I still love him.. A BIT now.. and when I saw a picture of him smiling happy with a senior who used to like him.. jealousy grew. And somehow, I don't like what that senior of mine is wearing. too sexy. And a picture of this girl who I'll be labeling as Choding. They were playing together and gosh.. more jealousy feelings grew.
Second, KAI. My friend Kai. I have a feeling, this one so-called friend of mine notice my feelings and tell Kai. And Kai didn't even talk to me for 2 days.. And in that 2 days, my feelings for him went down hill.. and the more I think about it, its like, I'm loving the friendship I have with him so... I'm not into him that much now. Hurray.
Third, Bacon. I saw this photo of him with Choding and they look like a couple.. that hurts me quite a lot.. so I think he's taken.. when I told my friend that, she says they're not in a relationship. Choding likes one of my friend's guy friend. So YAY ME AGAIN. But still, it hurts alot.
Fourth.. can't believe I'm saying this but I miss Daniel... right now he's studying for his A levels and not once have I seen him..
I'm done Diary. You can see how fuck up my life now.. and I'm single.. but not ready to mingle.. So good night diary..
Sunday 21 October 2012
Monday 8 October 2012
Sunny and Luna - It's Me (TTBY OST)
I love you, I love you, I love you
Even if I say it a thousand times, it’s not enough
I miss you, I miss you – each moment that I miss you, I miss you more
I call you and call you and call you and your face keeps floating up
If I hope and hope and hope, will you know how I feel someday?
It’s me who only knows you – the person who will only love you is me
It’s because meeting you was like a miracle to me
It’s me who only wants you – the person who will only protect you is me
It’s me who is only looking at you by your side, a fool
I draw out your face – will I see you in my dreams when I’m asleep?
If I want you and want you and want you, will you know how I feel someday?
It’s me who only knows you – the person who will only love you is me
It’s because meeting you was like a miracle to me
It’s me who only wants you – the person who will only protect you is me
It’s me who is only looking at you by your side
My heart is speaking, it’s saying that it’s only you
I love you, I love you alone, that’s me
This love story is only for you to hear
A story about how I loved only one person
Keep it for yourself – this love that no one knows about, it’s me
I’m singing this love song only for you
A song that can be heard only by you
It’s me who will always sing you this love song for only you
Even if I say it a thousand times, it’s not enough
I miss you, I miss you – each moment that I miss you, I miss you more
I call you and call you and call you and your face keeps floating up
If I hope and hope and hope, will you know how I feel someday?
It’s me who only knows you – the person who will only love you is me
It’s because meeting you was like a miracle to me
It’s me who only wants you – the person who will only protect you is me
It’s me who is only looking at you by your side, a fool
I draw out your face – will I see you in my dreams when I’m asleep?
If I want you and want you and want you, will you know how I feel someday?
It’s me who only knows you – the person who will only love you is me
It’s because meeting you was like a miracle to me
It’s me who only wants you – the person who will only protect you is me
It’s me who is only looking at you by your side
My heart is speaking, it’s saying that it’s only you
I love you, I love you alone, that’s me
This love story is only for you to hear
A story about how I loved only one person
Keep it for yourself – this love that no one knows about, it’s me
I’m singing this love song only for you
A song that can be heard only by you
It’s me who will always sing you this love song for only you
Friday 5 October 2012
Frustrated.
Dear Diary, today, my friend decided to be a bitch and start to act like a child. She told us we left her alone even though she was the one who didn't want to go. OH SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH. You're the eldest in the group while I'm the 3rd youngest and so many people think I'm the eldest because I act matured. You? Like a bitch.
I and the others do not live just to please you and if I want to, I won't. Pleasing people is a waste of time. Especially people like you. How are you my friend again? Wait.. I never think you were because you're such a spoiled brat. You may not be the youngest but you're the only girl in the family but that doesn't mean you need to be spoiled by us. Bitch, I'm done with you.
Do you even know how hard my friend cried just now? Her eyes were red and she beg for my so-called friend's forgiveness. I really wanna slap that bitch. Why? Who the fuck would tell people off when you're the one who's making the mistake. She is!
I give up trying to please her long time ago and whenever she said a bad thing about me, I ignore it because she doesn't even know me well. She thought my favorite color was yellow but it is not I tell you diary. My favorite color is grey, white, coral, baby pink, magenta and red.
I'm gonna try and cheer up my friends who were involve in this. Wish me luck! Bye bye.
I and the others do not live just to please you and if I want to, I won't. Pleasing people is a waste of time. Especially people like you. How are you my friend again? Wait.. I never think you were because you're such a spoiled brat. You may not be the youngest but you're the only girl in the family but that doesn't mean you need to be spoiled by us. Bitch, I'm done with you.
Do you even know how hard my friend cried just now? Her eyes were red and she beg for my so-called friend's forgiveness. I really wanna slap that bitch. Why? Who the fuck would tell people off when you're the one who's making the mistake. She is!
I give up trying to please her long time ago and whenever she said a bad thing about me, I ignore it because she doesn't even know me well. She thought my favorite color was yellow but it is not I tell you diary. My favorite color is grey, white, coral, baby pink, magenta and red.
I'm gonna try and cheer up my friends who were involve in this. Wish me luck! Bye bye.
Sunday 30 September 2012
Torn Between Three
Dear Diary, after the break-up with my ex-boyfriend who I'll be labeling as LuLu because he looks like EXO-M's Luhan 2 months ago. I've been looking for a guy to fill the other part of my heart. I know its weird because I'm already looking for guys but he's even more weirder to fall for my best friend now! And my best friend also likes him. They're in the 'like' situation' so I'm good. My ex's cousin told me he's a real player so she's not surprise if he broke up with me. And I'm relief to know that.
Another thing diary, when I look at this guy who I'll be labeling as Bacon since he looks like EXO-K Baekhyun.. He makes my heart goes crazy but.. some people say he has a girl friend and some says that he already broke up. I don't know what I should do diary because its either if I want to get to know him or just look at him from afar.
Moreover, my best friend whom I'll be labeling as Kkamjong because he has thick lips like EXO-K Kai, face shape like Kai and his skin is dark like Kai! I don't know why but I always feel that he's closer to me than the other girls in my class. Of course he is! He's my best friend! But he treats me as if I'm.. you know.. his girlfriend. Which is a bother because my friend, I mean friend and not best friend likes him so she always ask me to hook her together with him, or don't be too close to him. I told him that and he said he doesn't want to. Being in a relationship is to hefty. I told him the good things about being in a relationship and he ask me if we both like each other, will I be his? I was like.. okay.. this kkamjong wanna-be is high from 100+.. That was during our school's yearly sports day and his face was so close to me like.. half of you middle finger. And I was in a relationship with LuLu that time so people think I was cheating on LuLu. The 1999's line think that way but the 1998's and 1996's knows me well enough to think we're talking in a wrong angle. And on the day where me and LuLu broke up, he's the first one I console to since no one was online other than him at 3 in the morning. He told me he knew Lulu has something in his sleeves when we were chatting at the school's basketball court. He ask me if I need a replacement but I said no because I still love Lulu.
And no, I don't love Lulu anymore because I'm torn between three dudes. I've only told you two right? Well.
My senior who was born the same day Teen Top Niel is (1995's) and you guessed it. I'll be labeling him as Daniel. He does have thick lips and coincidentally, he's 178 cm. But no, his name is not Daniel. We started being close 2 months ago. Before the break-up. He's also my senior in bowling class so I was in the same lane as him and what do you know? We start talking non-stop and soon become friends. But exactly yesterday, he use the language where only allowed in relationships if its between guy and a girl. He told me that if he use that language, he's joking or he really likes her. And that makes me confuse even more.
Diary! WHY MUST SHIT happens now? And not during the holidays?
I'm done. Will update next week ;)
Another thing diary, when I look at this guy who I'll be labeling as Bacon since he looks like EXO-K Baekhyun.. He makes my heart goes crazy but.. some people say he has a girl friend and some says that he already broke up. I don't know what I should do diary because its either if I want to get to know him or just look at him from afar.
Moreover, my best friend whom I'll be labeling as Kkamjong because he has thick lips like EXO-K Kai, face shape like Kai and his skin is dark like Kai! I don't know why but I always feel that he's closer to me than the other girls in my class. Of course he is! He's my best friend! But he treats me as if I'm.. you know.. his girlfriend. Which is a bother because my friend, I mean friend and not best friend likes him so she always ask me to hook her together with him, or don't be too close to him. I told him that and he said he doesn't want to. Being in a relationship is to hefty. I told him the good things about being in a relationship and he ask me if we both like each other, will I be his? I was like.. okay.. this kkamjong wanna-be is high from 100+.. That was during our school's yearly sports day and his face was so close to me like.. half of you middle finger. And I was in a relationship with LuLu that time so people think I was cheating on LuLu. The 1999's line think that way but the 1998's and 1996's knows me well enough to think we're talking in a wrong angle. And on the day where me and LuLu broke up, he's the first one I console to since no one was online other than him at 3 in the morning. He told me he knew Lulu has something in his sleeves when we were chatting at the school's basketball court. He ask me if I need a replacement but I said no because I still love Lulu.
And no, I don't love Lulu anymore because I'm torn between three dudes. I've only told you two right? Well.
My senior who was born the same day Teen Top Niel is (1995's) and you guessed it. I'll be labeling him as Daniel. He does have thick lips and coincidentally, he's 178 cm. But no, his name is not Daniel. We started being close 2 months ago. Before the break-up. He's also my senior in bowling class so I was in the same lane as him and what do you know? We start talking non-stop and soon become friends. But exactly yesterday, he use the language where only allowed in relationships if its between guy and a girl. He told me that if he use that language, he's joking or he really likes her. And that makes me confuse even more.
Diary! WHY MUST SHIT happens now? And not during the holidays?
I'm done. Will update next week ;)
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